Weekend leave

[Crazy Buddhist]

The View from my room at the hospital:

http://freedomforall.net/KitchenPuter/View.jpg


There are no doctors in the hospital on the weekend. Last weekend a guy on my ward dying of bone marrow cancer did not have enough painkilling meds between Friday night and monday morning. Despite repeatedly paging the nurses routinely get no reply. They got none for him so he didn't stop screaming. It wasn't until Monday afternoon he got the drugs he needed.

This weekend I have come home. I'm enjoying not being there. The company that runs the bedside internet £2-£3 / $4-$6 a day for 256K up/down and TV thrown in. And it's firewall-filter hell I tell you.

The journalist who was writing a great piece about my situation has been subjected to threats so severe that he has backed off saying "so so so sorry" and "these people are evil" and "I'm in way over my head". He hasn't explained what happened but has asked me not to contact him again. I warned him from the start to watch his back and keep safe.

The hospital at weekends is a quiet place but the ward I'm on is intensive. It's weird tropical conditions and food poisoning and all transmissable diseases. And I have a musculoskeletal condition. Hmmm. It doesn't feel safe at weekends. Things get stolen. People are accidentally allowed in.

At home I have a high security door you need a hydraulic ram to open. I have knowledge of my home and the every day objects I have around that could be used in self defence (many - and things you would not think of lool).

They tried with drugs, they tried shutting my mouth, they have shut the mouth of a journalist. I do not put anything beyond these people.

Yet I am not scared.

They do not know me and my ways. I know them and their ways. I know about safety and danger in ways they don't conceive. When I walk on a street I am aware of what every individual around me is doing almost always. I watch people like a hawk and always have. I notice people who are not from my hood.

In hospital I would have been easy prey this weekend and I suspect there may have been plans afoot. Hence the attack on the journo timed to keep him away.

In my home and in my hood I am surrounded by folk who know me and watch out for me. I had a stalker/harrasser from the building. Pernicious guy. Many friends offered to sort it out but I follow the law. I asked the police and the local authority from whom we both rent to intervene.

Did they hell (except for my door). He went on for two years. Eventually someone - and I have no idea who - decided enough was enough and kicked seven shades of **** out of him, as we say in colloquial British english. He never troubled me again. I think it was the pain of walking on crutches for three months.

I don't condone violence and always personally won't engage in it until pushed to extremes in self defence. I believe awareness of your surroundings and of others is the best defence. But if I am pushed to the point I fear for my life it's all bets off and no holds barred.

Let's hope they aren't stupid enough to try and get me here. There would be blood on the carpet and walls (no mine either) before anyone took me out in my own home.

I'm going to relax and deny the temptation to mod a computer this weekend. I bought an A4 metal box filing carry case in bright blue just before going into hospital. I will eventually build the kitchen PC in. It's sitting on my coffee table with a Mobo and PSU successfully placed but not installed. No cuts made yet.

I downloaded some great music by Kate Nash. I went for breakfast in my local cafe. I'm going to knock on my neighbours door and surprise them. I'm going to forget about that place and all my troubles and enjoy my weekend leave. I might let myself dream up some mods. Now thats not too taxing ;)

:)

[AJ@PR]

Hey man :)

Hope everything goes smoothly this weekend.

Have a chocolate biscuit of those. ;)
Be safe! :)

-AJ

[DaJe]

What the %&#$ is going on....

[Crazy Buddhist]

What the **** is going on....

Confuscious said "may you live in interesting times". It was a curse. We do.

[xRyokenx]

Confuscious said "may you live in interesting times". It was a curse. We do.

...and don't I know it. Sucks about the journalist, what the %&** is going on in this world? I read too many books and not enough real news, whatever. The best news comes from those around you that aren't the fluff style people.

Glad you're back home. That hospital is one place I would never go within a mile of if it were me... I personally don't think the hospitals here are as bad as over there... I wonder if you could get a transfer down here or something. I know my grandpa needed a triple bypass and we ran him in and the staff were really nice to him and he became friends with some of them. Completely different culture it seems.

[nil8]

Sounds like a piss poor hospital. Most of the American hospitals I've seen(4), have small crews working on the weekends, so specialists are harder to come by, but outside of that operate in a form of stasis. If it can wait until the week, it normally does. They are still the same basic place, everything is just a bit slower or more lax.

Still, that's too bad to hear man. And violence can solve problems. It's all about knowing when, where and how.

Sounds to me like you have far more important things in life plaguing you than modding CB. Take care of yourself.

[Ironcat]

The journalist who was writing a great piece about my situation has been subjected to threats so severe that he has backed off saying "so so so sorry" and "these people are evil" and "I'm in way over my head". He hasn't explained what happened but has asked me not to contact him again.


They tried with drugs, they tried shutting my mouth, they have shut the mouth of a journalist. I do not put anything beyond these people.


In hospital I would have been easy prey this weekend and I suspect there may have been plans afoot.

Either...

A: The drugs they had you on in the hospital are still in your system
-or-
B: You're nuts.


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Everything else, all the stuff about the hospital was completely normal for a hospital and yes, I agree it sucks when you're the one getting it all happening to you but that's the way it works.

* Doctors don't like to work weekends anymore than you do, so they are on call, and just like real people, they don't call back right away.

* Just because a nurse 'told' you they were repeatedly paging, it doesn't mean they were. Most oncology patients in that much pain have a drip so a certain (safe) amount of painkillers is already there, it doesn't always work, but more would kill the patient so they give what they can give, and telling someone I just called your Doctor gives you time to do the other things you have to do. Most doctors also have a set amount of time between pages.
There are ALWAYS doctors in a hospital and if it would have been an emergency a Doctor would have been there.

* Obviously space in a hospital is at a premium but I'd like to know what hospital were you in that they put oncology patients with transmissable diseases?

I don't know you, I can't possibly have any idea what's going on in your life but I think maybe life is overwhelming you at the moment and you need a period of quiet reflectiveness or you need to talk to someone.

[Crazy Buddhist]

Either...

A: The drugs they had you on in the hospital are still in your system
-or-
B: You're nuts.

I don't know you, I can't possibly have any idea what's going on in your life but I think maybe life is overwhelming you at the moment and you need a period of quiet reflectiveness or you need to talk to someone.

And yet you think you can tell me that? You are right and you don't know me. I'm not nuts and neither is life overwhelming me.

They didn't have me on drugs in the hospital - the ones they wanted to give me - Erythrimicin, an Antibiotic for a disease I did not have - would have lead to respiratory collapse.

I saw the Journo yesterday who returned my papers. He looked ashen faced. He would not go into details. He handed back my papers and said he was "way in over his head" and asked me not to contact him - which I indeed will not do.

You ask what hospital has someone with oncological problems on a tropical diseases isolation ward. Good question. I have severe musculoskeletal problems - muscle atrophy affecting everything from my hips to my shoulders in the back of my body and my body is thus weak. My spine suffers scoliosis and kyphosis. Breathing is hard. It makes no sense I am there either.

Don't pass insanely lazy judgements on me please. It does you no justice to be so trigger happy.

And,


* Obviously space in a hospital is at a premium ...

Can you explain why, in that case, I have been in a bed for four weeks, told I may stay as long as I want - literally at my leisure, and the doctors are no where near understanding what is wrong with me, and have wasted days organising a full spine MRI scan asked for by a neurologist two weeks ago?

It's the glitches in the Matrix that give it up ... "what you see is not the key" ...

[Ironcat]

Who told you that erythromycin would lead to respiratory collapse?
That's just making up stuff... erythromycin is used to TREAT respiratory illness (as well as a dozen other types of bacteria).

Look it up in the P.D.R. if you don't want to believe me. Even the very rarely experienced side effects don't have anything to do with the respiratory system.

[Crazy Buddhist]

Who told you that erythromycin would lead to respiratory collapse?
That's just making up stuff... erythromycin is used to TREAT respiratory illness (as well as a dozen other types of bacteria).

Look it up in the P.D.R. if you don't want to believe me. Even the very rarely experienced side effects don't have anything to do with the respiratory system.

1/ Contra-indicated in patients with muscle weakness

2/ Contra-indicated in patients on Diazepam (me) as it stops the metabolism of Diazepam in the liver leading to an increased dose.

Add in

3/ My diaphragm does not displace during respiration. I breathe using accessory muscles in the neck, ribcage and chest.

4/ Diazepm in my case is administered to control spasms in muscles overworking to compensate for those that have failed and are atrophied and weak. Diazepam is contra-indicated in patients suffering muscle weakness. The effects would have been extrapolated and life threatening.

Look it up.

:)

Erythrimicin would have almost certainly lead to respiratory failure within 48 hours.

[tybrenis]

Sorry to hear about your current situation, CB. Hopefully things will improve for you.

To all in this thread - tread lightly, everyone loves a good debate, but make sure not to step on any toes.

[Quakken]

I feel like i'm reading a mystery novel where the author doesn't give you any clues, just a story and then you figure it out for yourself. But keep it this way, it's pretty interesting.

And don't let any doctors give you any drugs you think you know will hurt you or you don't need, or at least have them explain it fully if you don't understand. My brother was prescribed some antibiotics to prevent a staph infection when he was getting some tooth implant work done. They killed all the beneficial bacteria in his lower intestine, he had terrible diarrhea, and he's been having to take beneficial bacteria pills for the past 3 months to keep the system in check.

Don't let the system keep ya down, man. Regain strength. Don't let them get the best of you.

[Ironcat]

I stand corrected. I had not taken into account the fact that I can't possibly know everything going on in your body and therefore, I may have missed some contraindications...
Well, that and I am sometimes an asshat.

I may have been having a bit of an off-day when I posted my original semi-flame and for that I apologize but in my defense your post does have a minor "paranoid" air about it.

[Luke122]

"Just because you are paranoid doesn't mean they aren't out to get you."

:D

Matthew: Be strong, keep on fighting. I'm praying for you buddy. :)

[Crazy Buddhist]

I stand corrected. I had not taken into account the fact that I can't possibly know everything going on in your body and therefore, I may have missed some contraindications...
Well, that and I am sometimes an asshat.

I may have been having a bit of an off-day when I posted my original semi-flame and for that I apologize but in my defense your post does have a minor "paranoid" air about it.

No hard feelings Ironcat :) If I stumbled accross my post I may have quickly reached the same conclusions as you.

People around lady Diana told her she was being paranoid in the days before she died. Why? - She told them she feared the British Royal Family were planning to "fix the brakes" on her car so she would die in what seemed to be an accident. She clearly was not paranoid at all as she shortly thereafter died in a car crash.

I have very good reasons for the precations and attitudes I take.

:)

Thanks for your wishes and prayers Luke :)